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Colton Underwood finally broke his silence on his tumultuous past with Cassie Randolph in a bombshell Vanity Fair interview published today. The Traitors star revealed intimate details about his 2020 mental health crisis that preceded his public coming out as gay in 2021.
🔥 Quick Facts
- Restraining Order: Cassie Randolph filed a temporary restraining order in September 2020, alleged tracking device and excessive messages.
- New Interview: Colton spoke candidly to Vanity Fair today about his lowest point, medication struggles, and mental health crisis.
- Context Revealed: Underwood disclosed blackmail threats, hacking, and suicidal ideation during his darkest period before coming out.
- Current Life: Now married to Jordan C. Brown with a son, Colton said he’s taken six years to rebuild and seek accountability.
The Candid Confession Fans Have Been Waiting For
In an exclusive conversation with Vanity Fair, Colton Underwood finally addressed the elephant in the room. He acknowledged his troubling behavior toward Cassie Randolph with genuine contrition, explaining that he was in an absolute crisis. The Bachelor alum admitted, “I was fully convinced that she was gonna be my last straight…like, I was going to have to either kill myself or come out.”
Underwood described hitting rock bottom in 2020 as a perfect storm of concealed identity, mental health collapse, and medication dependency. He emphasized the lack of public context about his personal struggles at the time.
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Behind the Scenes Battle with Mental Health and Secrets
The Traitors contestant revealed he was battling Xanax addiction and prescription medication dependency during the period of his relationship deterioration. He opened up about receiving blackmail emails threatening to release photos from a gay spa, combined with iCloud hacking. These threats created intense paranoia that shattered his mental state.
Colton described discovering a private detective had been hired and people monitoring his home in West Hollywood. He stated, “I was dealing with not only invasion of my privacy, but also of my information, which was extremely terrifying.”
| Event | Timeline |
| Bachelor Season Finale | Early 2019 |
| Cassie Breakup | Mid 2020 |
| Restraining Order Filed | September 2020 |
| Good Morning America Coming Out | April 14, 2021 |
| Netflix Series Launched | Late 2021 |
The Apology Nobody Expected, But Everyone Wanted
Colton made clear he doesn’t expect universal forgiveness but has worked consistently on accountability. He pointed to his Netflix series “Coming Out Colton” and previous interviews as evidence of his commitment. In this Vanity Fair piece, he went deeper than ever before.
“Since 2020, I’ve put a lot of work into myself. I’ve worked with almost every network. I’ve shown up as a professional, I’ve shown up as a human being. I’ve taken accountability. I think better than that, I can point to the last six years of my life.”
— Colton Underwood, in Vanity Fair Interview
Death Threats and Growing Pains From The Traitors Backlash
Beyond discussing his past, Colton revealed the toll of recent harassment from his Traitors appearance. He disclosed receiving death threats targeting his family and his son’s name. The emotional weight of reliving his darkest period while securing his family’s safety has created real anxiety.
He stated, “There is a part of me that feels like some of it is projection,” regarding the intense vitriol from online critics. Colton explained he now carefully considers public appearances due to legitimate safety concerns for his husband Jordan and their child.
Why Does Colton Keep Putting Himself Out There?
When confronted with the question of why he continues seeking television platforms despite legitimate criticism, Underwood offered a profound answer. He credits messages from closeted young people who claim his story saved their lives. These personal testimonies motivate him to remain visible despite the pain.
Colton acknowledged he still has days where he wants to disappear completely but recognizes the representation he provides for struggling gay men in conservative communities. His continued work represents a calculated choice between privacy and purpose.
